scarlett johanson couldn't have said it any better..

I just have to come face-to-face with the fact that I am not gifted. You know, I can appreciate art and I love music, but...It's sad, really, because I feel like I have a lot to express and I am not gifted

a poem

Ferdinand Freiligrath, a beloved german poet.


O love, as long as love you can,
O love, as long as love you may,
The time will come, the time will come
When you will stand at the grave and mourn!

Be sure that your heart burns,
And holds and keeps love
As long as another heart beats warmly
With its love for you

And if someone bears his soul to you
Love him back as best you can
Give his every hour joy,
Let him pass none in sorrow!

And guard your words with care,
Lest harm flow from your lips!
Dear God, I meant no harm,
But the loved one recoils and mourns.

O love, love as long as you can!
O love, love as long as you may!
The time will come, the time will come,
When you will stand at the grave and mourn.

You will kneel alongside the grave
And your eyes will be sorrowful and moist,
—Never will you see the beloved again -
Only the churchyard’s tall, wet grass.

You will say: Look at me from below,
I who mourn here alongside your grave!
Forgive my slights!
Dear God, I meant no harm!

Yet the beloved does not see or hear you,
He lies beyond your comfort;
The lips you kissed so often speak
Not again: I forgave you long ago!

Indeed, he did forgive you,
But tears he would freely shed,
Over you and on your unthinking word -
Quiet now!—he rests, he has passed.

O love, love as long as you can!
O love, love as long as you may!
The time will come, the time will come,
When you will stand at the grave and mourn.

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” - Oscar Wilde

"We settle into a routine, our safety blanket, and shut everything else out. Because of Fear. It is the strongest force that holds us back. We are afraid of the new, unusual, unknown. Because we cannot categorize or stereotype something we haven't experienced, it doesn't fit in our minds, so we push it away. We're afraid to make mistakes, of failing, or regretting our decisions later.
But what are mistakes anyway? And who has the right to judge?
Why do you think that even YOU have the right to decide what was a mistake and what wasn't? How do you know? You don't ever, ever see the Bigger Picture, of how something terrible could have set of a chain reaction that lead to something wonderful. You can only guess, regret, worry, etc. But what for? You can think of what could of, should of, would of happened, but in the end its simply a waste of precious time.
We make decisions. Every minute of every day. With these decisions we control the course of our lives.
Of course there must be both good and bad things, mistakes are unavoidable, but we must do the best we can, strive to be the best we can be. If we never try we will never succeed. If we always retreat we can never have victory.
So, what are you waiting for...?

What AM I waiting for?..

stopping me from achieving my dreams:

confidence: disbelief that I could be what i want to be
financial resources.

I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep

Ever since my arrival to Dubai. I've felt shitty and pretty homesick. But after 2 weeks of just feeling low and sad. I woke up again. It seems that life is always on the brink of being too much to handle; from juggling school and having multiple jobs while trying to squeeze in sleep to being unemployed. Everyone at some point in time learns that that is life. it is a struggle and thats why we call it life.

There are two ways I can approach this; embrace this new change in my life and let my life flow, or sit there worry, blame myself for nonsense, and feel sorry for myself.. knowing of course that there are other more important things going on in the world that are worthy of feeling sad for.

Today I was thinking about how overwhelming existence is. There is so much to be experienced. so many interesting places that I must see. Im still young. I have no responsibilities(except some small financial ones). I can make mistakes. I can mess up and do things all over again. Because im young. This is my time to do this. They tell you "do this while your still young" there must be a damn right good reason they say this.. shit. I'm hit by wonderlust yet again.

Just when I thought i've gotten over this idea of desire, ambition, and longing for so much more I'm stricken again. Bam! There’s something out there for me. something exciting.

I am sure many can relate to feeling so lost, confused, hopeless, experiencing a feeling of sadness and lonliness. sometimes not understanding what your brought out to do in this world, why you exist, why you feel the way you do, why you do the things you do, and i can go on and on, but I am not here to talk about that. but what got me started with this is because i've completely graduated that stage in my life. I never thought i would. For so long there was and sitll is this unfillfilling feeling this emptiness. But i view it differently.

I am here to say that I know I am neither lost or confused. I am also no longer worried about my future either because I know if I knew what my future has in hold for me my life would be oober boring!!!!

Let's be realistic here. I know there are places I will not get to see, people I will not get to meet, and most importantly, things i will not be able to try to let me learn about myself- but that doesn't go on to say that I won't learn from small things. from my walks, to my convos with friends, family and acquantiances.

Around every corner there are new adventures and new experiences to have. New lessons to learn. People to meet. The "old" me would have replied back with " there's not enough time". Screw time its just an illusion, right?

metro in sweden! pretty sweet

http://www.leenks.com/gallery1213.htm

unfortunately it is blocked in UAE! ha ha

music quotes

http://cimddwc.net/2007/08/14/musikalische-zitate/?langswitch_lang=en

MUSIC QUTOES That make me feel a whole lot of just about everything..